Cheeqsteelo

Grief is a more complicated matter. It has a component of fear and one of regret- of wishing I could turn back the clock and do things differently..When this grief hits, I find myself looking inward, blaming myself somehow for allowing this to happen, for not seeing it coming at all. Grief also has a disorienting effect, offering no gameplan whatsoever, leaving me one only option: to suffer there in the moment, until it is usurped by rage once again. Emily Giffin- Heart of the Matter (via partofme-apartfrom-me)